I've dealt with depression, anxiety and social anxiety disorder for the majority of my life. It's a real bitch. I was bullied in high school too, for many years, and interestingly enough when I went to a high school reunion years later, most of the kids didn't remember ever picking on me. One even told me that he picked on everyone. It was an issue in our school, and my senior year, a boy did bring a gun to class and killed another right there in the class room. Bullying is a terrible, awful thing, and I understand how this can scar you.

Like so many others have said, I don't have any great advice. I can only tell you what I know. Getting help is essential, and if the meds aren't helping, they need to be adjusted or changed. Ongoing counseling is a must too - along with the meds. Depression is far too dangerous of a disease not to be treated correctly. It can take you down quick and without warning. It took me a long time to find the right combo of meds before I started to feel better. Don't give up though.

Know that it isn't YOU, you can't help what you're going through, and you aren't alone. My social anxiety disorder often keeps me from having friendships in the "real" world, and I consider my online friends my friends. It's just a different type of relationship, and it works just great for me. You've got people here who can relate, so hang out here - we all have a lot to chat about, are happy to listen when you need to reach out.

Keep us posted, alright?

I've had my tough times. Dad died when I was young. Quite a hard time at school when I was very young. But never been as down as you sound.

Maybe learn to play guitar would be good advice. Something to put your mind to, as you love music. Maybe follow some lessons, a way to get to know people who love music as well. Hopefully you meet some nice people at gigs too!

Keep up!

Just want to die

Don't be down, dyinglight94! Just know that, no matter what, whether they be someone you know or someone online on an Oasis forum, there is always someone who cares. Someone who cares about your well-being! The worst thing that can possibly happen is for you to take your life. Things will get better! And remember the lyrics from that Oasis classic, Stop Crying Your Heart Out. Bet you can recite them from memory, eh? Don't despair! You'll overcome your troubles soon, and then ten years later you'll be able to laugh about them, whilst looking back at the great life you've created for yourself since.

I don't really know what to tell you as I've said pretty much all I know in my post on the first page, and as other people have told you already.

So I'll just ask you what you've done with the advice you've received until now. Have you talked to someone yet? Have you been looking for a hobby or something else to pass the time with? Have you made a plan? No? I still think it's best for you to go see someone and talk to them. And if that's a step too high for you, then call one of those hotlines or join a forum. I saw some members shared a few links already.

I'm currently in a very bad place myself, but it helps to think about the little things in life that make you happy. Try to write down a couple of things that make you happy every day. Also write down 3 things you like about yourself. Write down what you would like to do in life, discuss this with someone and try to make a plan.

But my most important advice is: Get help and talk to someone.

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Cognitive therapy is great, but more of a help to deal with specific situations. Solution Focused Therapy (as it's called in English, apparently, according to some quick googling job) is something that could he helpful too. It's a very positive way of therapy and focuses on the solution rather than on the problem. You will focus more on the future, on what you want and what/who could help you to improve things.

That's already been arranged for you.

You'll get there soon enough. In the meantime, please, go on a date, learn an obscure skill, buy yourself a stupidly expensive meal, something. Part of me wants to die too, but I'm just trying to focus on the thousands of other things I want to do first.

But the little things they make me so happy.

All I want to do is live by the sea.

Little things they make me so happy.

But it's good it's good it's good to be free.

That song has helped me out in so many situations. It always makes me think of the Gallagher situation with their father etc, what a heartfelt song.

I think it's really brave that you're sharing this.

Hormons like Serotonin, which are resonating in our brains and stomaches, are also a big factor for our mental health.
If you are feeling frantic you should remember that your bodily reserves might be drained. But this could be changed. Keep yourself fit and eat healthy. Spring is comming and you might even get a dose Vitamine D. Don't be a f-cking Zombie!

You can change your life but still be yourself! In this life. Just call the whole thing off and get in rehabilitation mode. Doubting yourself is a strength that will help you to change. Don't be dependent by people. You are on your own - in your world. This all is just your minds photograph. Do something for yourself: In the end you could still make a living out of ebay or selling sausages or preferably selling diving goggles on Italian beaches.     

I don't really have anything to add that anyone else here hasn't said far better or more eloquently than I could here dyinglight94 but I just wanted to say I read all of you're first post and it must have been really fucking tough to write that and I feel for you totally.

Can relate to the old head on young shoulders totally too. I don't fit into any mould easily either (I'm in my mid 20's FYI).

Anyway,

Please stick around and give your opinions on Oasis. Especially the incredible, the amazing, mighty Be Here Now !!