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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 1, 2017 21:25:31 GMT -5
Because the treatment center I'm going to is so small (around 8 clients max), the CEO did my intake. He seems like a decent guy, he'll lead a few groups too.... ...but we got on the topic of Premier League, and he told me he's a Chelsea fan. Bollocks to that!
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Post by guigsysEstring on Nov 2, 2017 9:20:40 GMT -5
Because the treatment center I'm going to is so small (around 8 clients max), the CEO did my intake. He seems like a decent guy, he'll lead a few groups too.... ...but we got on the topic of Premier League, and he told me he's a Chelsea fan. Bollocks to that! Proper Skyboy then, i.e. never been anywhere near Stamford Bridge and if he has it wasn't in the pre-Abramovich/grim 1980's days! Good to hear you are getting the help you need Nigel, and keep on keeping on as Weller/OCS would say!
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Post by thatsmyattitude on Nov 3, 2017 4:43:32 GMT -5
Just donated Ben. Your posts in the play pen consistently make me laugh You have talent, fingers crossed for your recovery. Meditation and support groups have helped sort myself out, maybe give that a go, if you haven't already.. All the best Dan
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Post by Deleted on Nov 3, 2017 5:01:56 GMT -5
you will not be checking out anytime soon, ben. not if we have anything to say about it.
just donated... you're going to beat this. stay strong buddy.
-len
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 3, 2017 22:35:11 GMT -5
Thanks so much, everyone.
Because this has been an ongoing fight, I'd thought I'd just waltz into treatment. But after my first 24 hours, I'm cruelly reminded how fucking hard this is and I'm starting almost at the beginning again - 135 lbs. it's so exhausting and physically difficult but I thank everyone for the support and kind words.
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Post by guigsysEstring on Nov 3, 2017 23:24:57 GMT -5
Thanks so much, everyone. Because this has been an ongoing fight, I'd thought I'd just waltz into treatment. But after my first 24 hours, I'm cruelly reminded how fucking hard this is and I'm starting almost at the beginning again - 135 lbs. it's so exhausting and physically difficult but I thank everyone for the support and kind words. Morning Nigel, It is obviously going to be a difficult time but look at how much you are achieving yourself by getting back into the treatment you need and gaining support from acquaintances, friends and family- you have actually taken more control over the situation this time around than perhaps ever before, and that in itself is a positive achievement as well as a good starting point on your road to recovery. Keep fighting the good fight and know now that you are not alone in this with the support that has been shown to you Best as ever, Guigs
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 4, 2017 14:07:34 GMT -5
I don't care how many times I've done this, you never ever ever get used to Bathroom Monitoring - other than the fuck ton of food we have to eat, that is easily the worst part.
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Post by jxing on Nov 5, 2017 16:20:39 GMT -5
Wish I could help financially... however, try this organization.. they might be able to help with insurance payments or at least give you some advice.... Patient Services, Inc. www.patientservicesinc.org/Wish you all the best, keeping fighting. This forum is definitely nothing without you.
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 5, 2017 20:47:16 GMT -5
Wish I could help financially... however, try this organization.. they might be able to help with insurance payments or at least give you some advice.... Patient Services, Inc. www.patientservicesinc.org/Wish you all the best, keeping fighting. This forum is definitely nothing without you. Cheers matey. You have no idea how badly I just want to fucking give up right now.
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Post by jxing on Nov 5, 2017 20:50:47 GMT -5
Wish I could help financially... however, try this organization.. they might be able to help with insurance payments or at least give you some advice.... Patient Services, Inc. www.patientservicesinc.org/Wish you all the best, keeping fighting. This forum is definitely nothing without you. Cheers matey. You have no idea how badly I just want to fucking give up right now. Believe me... I know.. not in your exact situation but it does and will get better. Seriously, call them. They might be able to help and if not, then might have some advice.
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Post by guigsysEstring on Nov 5, 2017 21:03:07 GMT -5
Wish I could help financially... however, try this organization.. they might be able to help with insurance payments or at least give you some advice.... Patient Services, Inc. www.patientservicesinc.org/Wish you all the best, keeping fighting. This forum is definitely nothing without you. Cheers matey. You have no idea how badly I just want to fucking give up right now. Nigel, From a despair/stress related breakdown with your parents over healthcare and phone bills to a hotel alone where you started to turn things around by yourself....You are making progress mate mentally and although I have read about your condition I obviously can't say "I know how you feel" BUT- I genuinely believe from our conversations you have the inner strength to get you through what undoubtedly has been and at present remains a long struggle. You have a dream of being involved in politics within a field that can be similarly stressful, and focus your mind if you can that if when you recover and have taken your Masters in International Relations you will have had experience of the most trying personal times that some people in that field could not comprehend. That will benefit you in it's own unique way as you rebuild your life in a way I believe you, and hope for the most part you do to, can do Best as always mate, Guigs
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 6, 2017 19:26:44 GMT -5
No, for real - how the fuck do you go to the bathroom when you have to keep the door cracked, and there’s a woman staff member standing literally right outside?
Fucking hell, man. My stomach is in knots all day, every day.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 6, 2017 19:36:39 GMT -5
No, for real - how the fuck do you go to the bathroom when you have to keep the door cracked, and there’s a woman staff member standing literally right outside? Fucking hell, man. My stomach is in knots all day, every day. i'm with you, that's absolutely fucking brutal man. i must confess i even have problems 'starting the flow' while standing at a urinal if someone is using the one beside me... so how do you do it, anyway? i'm thinking you must try to think of something else totally random to keep your mind occupied.
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 6, 2017 21:10:40 GMT -5
No, for real - how the fuck do you go to the bathroom when you have to keep the door cracked, and there’s a woman staff member standing literally right outside? Fucking hell, man. My stomach is in knots all day, every day. i'm with you, that's absolutely fucking brutal man. i must confess i even have problems 'starting the flow' while standing at a urinal if someone is using the one beside me... so how do you do it, anyway? i'm thinking you must try to think of something else totally random to keep your mind occupied. Luckily because I'm the only male (with 10 chicks, wish I could get this ratio in real life), I get my own room and access to my own bathroom at NIGHT --- I.e., brutal endurance. And the amount of food we eat all day just compounds the problem! Not kidding when I say this: Most places the staff member has to CHECK the the toilet before you flush, and there are even facilities that FLUSH FOR YOU. Fucking hell, man. Not fun!
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 8, 2017 12:46:00 GMT -5
The worst part of waking up is Ensure in your cup.
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Post by RocketMan on Nov 8, 2017 13:10:37 GMT -5
you will get through this man. stay positive
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2017 13:42:44 GMT -5
I'm reminded of a post on Facebook the other day by a good friend of mine who went into treatment for alcohol and drug addiction 8 years ago. He phoned me the day he was going in and I was genuinely shocked that he was willing to face his problems and try to find a way out. He broke down talking to me, which felt very strange given that he's nearly 20 years older than me, but I still believed that he would call me back again within a few days to the effect of "I don't need any of that shit, when are you around for a beer?"
I was thankfully completely wrong and he is now 8 years clean. These things can be beaten with the right support. Keep fighting the good fight.
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Post by glider on Nov 8, 2017 16:19:25 GMT -5
Beady’s Here Now, what is the eating window for you at this facility? And do they try to feed you tons of food in one sitting?
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 8, 2017 19:35:39 GMT -5
Beady’s Here Now, what is the eating window for you at this facility? And do they try to feed you tons of food in one sitting? 3 meals, 3 snacks Breakfast: 8am AM Snack: 10am Lunch: 12noon PM Snack: 3pm Dinner: 6pm Night Snack: 9pm And portion sizes are large because we are all on weight restoration meal plans,...and because this is ‘MURICA.
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Post by guigsysEstring on Nov 8, 2017 19:39:57 GMT -5
Beady’s Here Now , what is the eating window for you at this facility? And do they try to feed you tons of food in one sitting? 3 meals, 3 snacks Breakfast: 8am AM Snack: 10am Lunch: 12noon PM Snack: 3pm Dinner: 6pm Night Snack: 9pm And portion sizes are large because we are all on weight restoration meal plans,...and because this is ‘MURICA. I would hope more the former reason than the latter though Hang in there Nigel you are following the right route to recovery so far
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 8, 2017 22:09:50 GMT -5
In theory, I have a transfer to another facility set up (a facility where I've been twice before) because I like options. But sometimes options can be suffocating. One week in, and there are only pros to staying and several cons to leaving for the other facility. And yet - and yet - the other place has the appeal of familiarity. I actually hated the other facility. Perhaps I just want to run but the question remains: ¿Yo me enfrio o lo soplo? This indecision's bugging me. guigsysEstring
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Post by guigsysEstring on Nov 8, 2017 22:28:09 GMT -5
In theory, I have a transfer to another facility set up (a facility where I've been twice before) because I like options. But sometimes options can be suffocating. One week in, and there are only pros to staying and several cons to leaving for the other facility. And yet - and yet - the other place has the appeal of familiarity. I actually fairly did.ike the other facility. Perhaps I just want to run but the question remains: ¿Yo me enfrio o lo soplo? This indecision's bugging me. guigsysEstring Nigel, Liking The Clash quotation very much ( mimmihopps ) Beyond that I think you have answered the question yourself in that highlighted text. You have undergone a tumultuous* time of late with leaving the other facilities, the temporary home at the hotel, your family, etc. and are probably still mentally readjusting to having a stable, for now at least, place in a physical sense. Give it until the New Year at least and see how your treatment is progressing- from there and perhaps with input from family and professionals you can evaluate your situation and decide from there if it should continue as it is or require a change of plan that may include a relocation. If you go now you run the risk of putting more mental stress upon yourself with the move itself and the "Have I done the right thing?" type questions, whereas two or three months is not a long time in the grand scheme of things to be able to see if a pattern is at least emerging that will indicate how well your current treatment is going. As always best mate, Guigs * Big word of the day entry
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Post by Beady’s Here Now on Nov 8, 2017 22:34:38 GMT -5
I’m certainly staying. 10 patients max, which is fucking tiny (the other facility is 5x bigger!). And on our outing to Target on Saturday, this place bought me a soccer ball without my asking as they know I love the sport. I’m not used to such kindness coming off the utter shit I went through at the last place.
It’s nice to be seen and treated as an individual and not a fucking number.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour 🐴 on Nov 9, 2017 1:49:35 GMT -5
I'm reminded of my aunt's mother. She had to raise a granddaughter through anorexia (she was bulemic I think too). She was pivotal in Karen (be quiet) marrying her now husband.
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Post by guigsysEstring on Nov 9, 2017 2:08:04 GMT -5
I’m certainly staying. 10 patients max, which is fucking tiny (the other facility is 5x bigger!). And on our outing to Target on Saturday, this place bought me a soccer ball without my asking as they know I love the sport. I’m not used to such kindness coming off the utter shit I went through at the last place.It’s nice to be seen and treated as an individual and not a fucking number. Sorry Nigel I put these two together and came up with this! Glad to hear you are staying put for now though
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